In a paradoxical way, I guess yes. In other words, I am not bothered with the issue itself, but rather with my detachment and apathy that by right, should not be present. Dayum. By left, it unfortunately is. Perhaps it's the preparation for A levels which has sucked my already limited capability to be emotionally-strung to people. Perhaps I really don't care. Perhaps the brevity of the whole situation has not hit me yet. Perhaps after all this time, you don't really mean a thing to me, and I could just drop you. Perhaps because the hoard was not much to begin with, the loss was not overwhelming. Perhaps I don't know how to treasure the people around me, because I assume they're all gonna disappear eventually; no one hangs around forever. Circumstances and occurences tear everyone apart. Ironically, I still choose to have T around me. Maybe my emotional capabilities are still a "work-in-progress" kind of thing.
Well, whatever happens, I doubt I will actually feel the impact significantly. I do hope it's not a result of closing off my emotions. I just feel like a dried leaf, going wherever the wind takes me to, incapable of dictating my own route. Not that I want to in this case; ball's in your court anyway. Cliche as it is, only time will tell!! In the mean time, I will return to my essays :)
Cheers!
My current earworm. Insanely cuteeeee!
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